sometimes...

you think you feel involved and a part of someone's life, and then you don't, because they blatantly make you feel that you're not, like right in front of you, on the phone, like you're not even there. it hurts.

cellphones...

At the dinner table? what if you're trying to entertain the person you're with and they still don't acknowledge you because they are so involved with whatever they are looking at on their cellphones? I FUCKING HATE IT! I do not: text, have a camera, or have internet access on my cellphone. Call me old-fashioned, call me a big softie, but i just want to have a nice conversation (hell, even an argument would be more entertaining than pure silence) when I go out with someone, even if it's only a a few words here and there between bites, just a little human interaction would be nice is all... am i so wrong in feeling this way? I don't know, I've worked in the service industry a long time and it seems like people who go out together speak to one another, make not only verbal contact, but physical contact as well. Anyway, that's my rant for the evening. Going to art-walk tomorrow after I get off of work, looking forward to it, hopefully get to hang out with some people i haven't seen in a while.

Damn New Job

Don't get me wrong, I love my kick-ass new bartending job, but 10 hour training shifts on top of working my other job in the daytime is getting taxing. I missed filming with VEER! today and I'm pretty upset with myself on that one, I made obligations and basically bailed, however, against my own will. I got off work at 3:30, went to bed at 4:00, set my alarm for 6:00, and sure enough my body(and probably mind too) would not allow me to wake up to numerous phone calls and alarms. But maybe this is a sign that I shouldn't wear myself so thin, if only the body could take more awake time and less sleep time. This would be ideal. Still, it makes me feel lazy, there are people out there who have 3 kids, go to school full time and work 2 jobs, so I try to never bitch about being tired or stressed out because comparatively speaking, it seems I have it pretty easy. I just want to say sorry to Pat and Jesse for not showing up, I will call them later. Off to my last 10 hour training shift of wearing next to nothing, being hit on by my boss, getting soaked and sticky in booze, and flirting with people in order to make money. Excuse me, can someone help me find my dignity?!?!?!

Gonna try and do the blog thing

Not only does it seem like a lot of work, it also seems a little pretentious.... but I'll try it. So guess where I'm moving... Baton Rouge! It'll be home-base with my man since I'll be traveling around quite often. I've actually never been there but I've done some research and it looks like a beautiful place with lots of personality and culture. Does anyone have any good suggestions for restaurants, grocery stores, or just overall sweet places to see?